Life, the universe and other things that suck

my life sucks, its official.  had a very blah day at work, mouse refused to work, other things kept going minorly wrong and it has all built up now that its not even 10 i've just drunk a large bottle of perry (not even cider) and some stella whilst watching skins (kids having more fun than i ever did or will again) my name is earl and smackdown.  i'm now just listening to music and feeling very down. 

I havent spoken to my housemate in over a month because she has a less than cool boyfriend and she just locks herself away in her room all of the time and im feeling bitter because i tidied up downstairs and dont think that ill get any credit for it, even though i dont deserve any.  and i think plans are now underway to move else places.  its not that i dont enjoy living in cardiff its just that it does now seem incredibly far when we barely go out in town and i end up back in miskin most weekends anyway.

Also i bottled it with Jenny when i was back in aber last weekend.  she seems to have moved on a lot, so much more out going than ever before and i just feel like i would be holding her back or something, although i couldnt explain this at the time.  the worst thing is that i now accept that however much i loved being at aber uni it is now not a great time unless i drink, which just makes me less than sociable with the people im there to see.  i cant open up ithout a drink or two but once ive passed that point theres o return and i drink too much.

And i fancy Adie which is a little weird seeing as shes Huws friend and i have no way of speaking to her really.  I just cant get he out of my head